Saturday 30 March 2013

our blossoming love lives...

Man, Eggs, we have been MIA lately.

FYI, this post is not a photo one... it's a rant one. I have much to rant out.

So me and Eggs both have new men, and the hilarious part is that they both came into our lives on basically the same day. Online, of course... haha. But anyways, here is the story in brief (as brief as I can make it, anyway).

I met mine on a Catholic chat room (sucks that it was a chat room, but what can you do). I had no interest whatsoever in him, and he had none in me either. Anyways, he mentioned that he has kids, so I was like, hey, you lookin' for a nanny? And he was like hmm, actually yeah... (I've been looking for a nanny job for the past few months).

So I'm like okay, this is interesting. So I gave him my email, he gave me his. I was still not interested in him that way at all; he was 7 years older with four kids and he lives far away. But we did have that connection going on, which was fun. I just figured it would be a good thing when it came to me working for him...

But anyways. We emailed, then we skyped, then we couldn't stop skyping, then we kept on skyping for two weeks, then we couldn't figure out a way to go to bed because we had been talking too much and too easily and it felt too good. I figured out slowly that he pretty much checks off everything on my list, and then some: Catholic, nice arms, funny, kind, a little crazy. It's weird. Weird but so... easy. It just works, and it fits, and it's amazing. Here he is with his creepy pet mannequin in the background. And also his skateboard... sigh. Yep. He is even a skater boy. And mmmmm those tattoos...



I think he loves me, which is terrifying and amazing. We click. It could go somewhere. It's been perfect. And I haven't had more than five hours of sleep a night for about two weeks. My concern for the time being is that he has four kids who are old enough to know the situation... I mean, I feel like I am just a kid myself. But I will just sit back a little and let that play out on its own. I shouldn't worry about something that was so clearly orchestrated by God, and I know it was. I feel that in my heart; no matter what happens in the end, I know I am supposed to know him for now. He was absolutely meant to stumble into my life right now. Right now I am just waiting to figure out what the reason for that is.

And also, me and Tattoos have a song already. It's God Gave Me You by Blake Shelton, which is so weird for me but he sent it to me with a smile and said it made him think of me. He thinks God gave me to him. :-) 


And he is moving to California this weekend. So that means one more reason for us to get our shit together Eggs, and go there! And really, what are the odds that he would move to California? lol. So random.

And now for Eggs' man... (on the right)



She met him on a dating site, which is really awesome. Dating sites take a lot of courage, I have found, so good on you Eggs. Anyways, her bearded fella was instantly adorable and awesome. He wears lots of plaid and has a great beard... and he knows what to do with a candy necklace. And did I mention that beard?

Eggs, you go ahead and add the rest of your love story now if you want to. :-) I feel like I don't know much.

I have to say... I have kinda missed being in love. :-)

Guess it really is always darkest before the dawn.....Happy Easter, folks, and Christos Voskras to my Ukrainian bros!

Monday 18 March 2013

always crashing in the same car

It's high time for an emo rant. Sorry. I just hate life and people today (and I'm not even PMS-ing... must be the weather). 

1. Everyone is dying this year. Death is everywhere.
2. Everyone is getting cancer this year. Cancer is everywhere. 
3. Things are changing too quickly... everything is changing and I hate it. I just want stability, but the more I want it, the further away from me it seems to get. 
4. I am still fat, lonely, miserable and hating myself. 
5. School sucks balls.
6. I just want to find a boyfriend without resorting to the internet. 
7. I want to feel beautiful but I feel uglier every day.
8. I feel as if I'm always crashing in the same car.

To add to my #4 thing... here are some fat girl problems. Some of them would make me laugh if they weren't so accurate about my own self right now...


 (makes me realize why I am so concerned with my weight...)


 (or I would if I actually had a boyfriend...)






















Sigh. More positive things now... Harry Potter!!!














Love...
















Nice quotes...
















And other jazz...






 (Dude- Colin, Adam, Andy, Leah, and Matt... Simon is the photographer)




















And Eggs, this is for us...



And here is my new life motto once more:


Here's hoping life improves for everyone. It needs to.
Love, Hess